currently listening: just for you- lionel richie.

in a few hours, i'll be leavin for KL. i've duly informed my daily beloved online chatters i'll miss em while im gone.



currently listening: cry- kim marsh

sometimes, i prefer communicating to inanimate objects rather than people. they understand better.



currently listening: Lincoln avenue- train

this week's pretty much set to look the same sluggish week as the last. cept a lil less..sluggy?lol.
hung out in school and town yesterday for a good 8 hours with awesome company. which was swell, given the wonderful change of surroundings on my not-so-wonderful life at this point.

great.lol.i feel like a juicy slug. (pardon me, i really felt like posting that statement regardless of how random it sounded. and also, maybe coz i become really random when i feel a sense of loss on how to continue the damn post.)

so, yes. that was a pleasant jolt to the world outside my quaint lil house, credits to shaz and taff for the company and also for the very- much-appreciated understanding when i got high on the pasta with white wine sauce.=D.

QUIZ.
1. pick 1 of ur scars out now.. how did u get it?
there's one at the waist that marks a bad swimming encounter.

2. What's on the walls of ur room?
nothing, tho it used to have a poster of xtina on it.

3. Would u rather play or watch football?
R.O.F.L.

4. What sport would u say you're good at?
HEY,LOOK UP!!!!... *runs

5. What's ur worst nightmare?
DEAD me.

6. Apples or oranges?
both *grin*

7. Grapes or watermelons?
BOTH. *grin*

8. wolves or tigers?
wolves. mythical and wayyy less cheena.

9. What sort of music do u listen to?
stuff with a good vibe and lyrics.

10.have u ever written poetry?
AHAHA *grins taff

11. Do u remember birthdays?
sometimes.

12. do u know what time u were born?
in the middle of the night.

13. Do u have a birth mark? where?
ya.wanna see?=D.

14. Are you a sweet person?
im kinda thinkin, sweet and sour?=D. damn im hungry.

15. What were u doing b4 u started filling this in?
teevee-ing.

16. What's ur favourite gun?
the one that screams FUNNN!!
ok,Lame.

19. Chocolate or vanilla ice-cream?
choc.

20. What is d first thing u notice on sum1 (opp sex)?
boobs and sex appeal -_-( i have honesty engraved on my halo yea?)

21. What's ur fav smell?
dunno.lol.

22. Fave sound that u hear often?
i seriously dont know.

23. What r u thinkin about right now?
my somewhat pathetic existence. wooh boy talk abt negativity indeed.

24. What is ur fav disney movie of all time?
im going with taff on this one. lion king!

25. What color r ur eyes?
a nice shade of black.:)D.

26. Have u ever slept with a stuffed animal?
ahahaha.ya.

27. What's the name of the stuffed anmal?
i dont remember.

28. Who was ur first crush wen u were little?
*shrugs*

29. What kind of hair do u like on the opp sex?
whichever shade that makes her a really appealing.

30. Who out of ur frens (same sex) have u known the longest?
haha, i have seriously no idea.

31. Sunrise or sunset?
i've done this before!

32. wat happened tis few days?
went out for the first time in 2 weeks. swelll.

33. Movies?
the maid with classmates.

34. Where can u c urself goin for ur honeymoon?
europeee!

35. Can u play an instrument?
P.I.A.N.O.

36. Do u usually butt in peeps convy's?
i'd really,really LOVE to think im natural. but im really not.rofl.

36. Band/s?
?

38. What kind of books do u like to read?
dont have a preference.

39. Do u like poetry?
?!
40. How do u like ur coffee?
strong for functional purposes.


*GRINNN. YEY!! IM SO OUT OF HERE!



currently listening: miss you nights- westlife.

its been a sluggish week.and im almost certain i've turned into a lump of crap embedded in my sanctuary of a house.pfft.

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

• I So Hate Consequences- relient k
  

sleepless nights have started
to take a toll on me
still i know i cant afford
to rest myself and close my eyes
when all my dreams are all i have of you,
wild and cryptic,
leavings clues,
a semblence,
but leading me to nothing at all.

i waste my life away
making promises to myself
only to find me breaking them
when i find myself
dialing your number again.
and i hate this feeling,
because i dont want to want,
or need you this much,
but still i find you're my answer,
to another empty evening.

i'm bent over these waters,
staring at the mess i'd never thought i'd be,
i'm left to pick up the pieces,
but nothing fits,
nothing makes sense,
yet knowingly i dive all over again,
into this tangle of you and me,
with regret running close behind.



currently listening: what if god was one of us- joan osborne

1. Would you marry for money?
__; maybe.

2. Have you had braces?
__; nope.

3. Could you live without a computer?
__; no, considering where im studying at.

4.If you could live in any past time period
when would it be?
__; i've no desire to.

5. Do you drink enough water
__; unfortunately,no.

6.Do you wear shoes in the house or
take 'em off?
__; off.

7.What are your favorite fruits?
___; strawberries, cheeries, oranges.

8. What is your favorite place to visit?
__; Mel's house! Wahah.

9. Are you photogenic?
__; :]

10. Do you dream in color or black and
white?
__; color.

11.Why do you take surveys?
__; coz boredom struck gold.

12. Do you drink alcohol?
__; rarely.

13. What is the most beautiful language?
__; latin.

14. Do you like being kissed when you
are asleep?
__; NO! yuck.

15. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the
most?
__; i like both at its equal best i suppose.

16. Do you want to live to be 100?
__; no.

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?
__; ?

19.When you watch movies at home, do
you like the lights switched on or off?
__; wellll. it depends on the circumstances.

20. Do you believe in magic?
__; i dont know.

22. Do you like to watch cartoons?
__; OOH!!!!!!! well, no. not anymore; unless im with lianne and co, or anyone crazyfun :p

23. At what age did you find out that
Santa Claus
is not real?
__; dont know, i pretty much had the mindset all my life that he's never real*grin

24. Do you write poetry?
__; yesh. roses are dead violets are poo.

25. Do you snore?
__; yep.

26.Do you sleep more on your back,
front,or sides?
__; any way i feel most comfortable in at the very moment.

27. Would you rather have a poodle or a
rottweiler?
__; neither.

28. Are you basically a happy person?
__; haha. is cynically happy counted?

29.Are you tired?
__; ?

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine
in it today?
__; nope.

32. How many phones do you have in
your house?
__; 2, im assuming house phones

33. Do you get along with your parents?
__; haha. my parents and i share a tempestuous relationship.

34. Do u smoke?
__; oh yeah, alot.

36. Do you like/love anyone now?
__; ooh yea, tons!

37. What will you do if you're sad?
__; sleep. mope. drone

38. Who you need most now?
__; a divine drive to get my arse crackin'. yep! thats what i need now man.

39. What song you listenin to now?
__; never to know- lene marlin.



currently listening: gravity- embrace.

ROFL. one of those songs i cant differentiate betwen the artist and title of song.wahah. havent been updating much due to an bucketful of reasons. evidently its an odd entry every few weeks or so with hardly a connection to the previous post after periods of absence.

shouldnt blogging be done on a regular(*edit; as regular as possible lol) basis? anyway, my intention of keepin the readership as low as possible has failed. apparently. im considering a move away.
ANYWAY.

no use crying over spilled vodka. i must as well just handle it like a mature sensible adult. *grin forgive me, it is 4 in the bloody morning. also its no bloody use to say whut i wanna really say here since this blog has lost its divine drive for me to keep updating this.

sigh. right i'll end with my newest creation that still needs a makeover from taff.
wahhaa.

and when my dreams are all i have of you,
wild and cryptic
leaving clues, a semblence
a far cry from the truth.

nothing fits,
nothing makes sense.
unravelling the broken pieces;
shattered on the briiliant mind
with regret running close behind.

currently listening: you were mine-dixie chicks

what went wrong can be forgiven; without you it aint worth livin,alone.

today is the last day of school.the start of my 4 week break. will be going on a short holiday with the class on the 28th of this month for two days. the past few days have been pretty cool and depressing.
met up with taff and yadz yesterday for a movie and breakfast at mcdees. was pretty cool to finally go out with her coz she was really sick for the past week. shaz was supposed to join us but for some reason she couldnt make it on time.

anyway. moving on to the depressing bit of the post, i've quit my job at sentosa. im not exactly depressed about it, im just feeling unsettled coz of the lack of a proper closure which i dunno exactly how to explain why the closure wasnt proper. its just a bloody feeling ya know?

and becoz of my inability to be confident in making decisions, my head and heart are left in the wrong places.lol.

*sigh*

alright! and moving right back to brighter spots, I KNOW HER NAME! WAHAHAH.HER name.
the infamous her, the mysterious senorita,the goodlooking stranger, my juliet(! waha, go on, the liberty to cringe is yours)*grin*
so yea, her name's stacey. not exactly ideal, but sufficient la.lol.
kudos to jonathan for that bit of info.:)
anyway, she wore a jersey today with her name imprinted at the back.
LOL.hot.
HEHEHE.

fuck, im psycho.

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